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Lenten Noonday Preaching Series Calvary Episcopal Church Memphis, Tennessee February 24, 1999
I'm So
Beholden What a joy to be a part of your Lenten preaching series at Calvary again this year. Im always delighted to be asked and happy to accept. Every year the competition gets keener to be in this pulpit. I showed, as I think I expressed to some of you, the bulletin this year, the brochure that Doug mentioned to some of my staff. They said, How do they get all of those good preachers in Memphis? I want you to know that if you dont know some of the preachers in that group, they are really superb, and any day you attend this series... I assure you, I wish I were able to be a part of Memphis for the next forty days or so to participate with the stellar crowd of folks who are going to be sharing themselves with you. I love to be in Memphis and Deener and I feel like we are coming home. It is a joy to be with so many of you whom we remember from so many, many years ago. I also like to be close to Mississippi. My mother grew up in Mississippi, in a little town called Canton, near Jackson. My relatives, every one of them, still live in Mississippi, and I enjoy going back. My mother
had some expressions that were, Im not sure they were Mississippi
expressions, I think of them as being that only because of her rootedness
in that culture. One of them occurred when my mother or my father, who
was a Southerner as well, would be in the context where something would
be given to them - maybe someone had been sick, and the person comes to
the front door and knocks and has a plate of food and my mother would
take it; or maybe when the grandchild was coming, and they brought over
a bassinet or something and loaned it; or maybe when the car wasnt
working and they picked somebody up to take somebody - that kind of event.
My mother would often say this: Much obliged. Remember that?
Did your mother do that? Yes. Much Obliged. When she really meant it,
she would add this: Im so beholden. Sound familiar?
They dont use those phrases in New York City. Ive never heard
them once. Lost that havent we? Its really kind of sad that
weve lost it. You know what weve lost? Weve lost what
it was my mother meant when she said that. It was not only do I like and
appreciate and thank you for the gift, but it was something else in there
that went something like this: This somehow bonds you and me. This somehow
makes you a part of me and me a part of you. It was like we are really
close; I want you to know it as a result of this gesture. It didnt
contain in it what we today so fearfully avoid. Oh, my goodness! Now we
owe them something. Hurry up, honey, get something and reciprocate quickly,
so we wont be beholden. My mother
loved being beholden, and she loved just as much having that said to her.
When she presented something to some friend, relative or neighbor, and
they said, Oh, Martha, Im so beholden, it tickled her
to death, because somehow that meant a deep quality of friendship that
only could come when you were a gift-giver, or a gift-receiver bonded
in obligation and beholden. Gone. I dont know exactly what happened
to it but it is practically gone. No, not just in New York City. In Memphis,
Mississippi, itself. Think for
a moment about one area of our lives. Health. A precious, precious thing
just to be here today - just to be healthy enough to join with this fellowship.
What a joy! Ive just been through some extensive [surgery], four
procedures, four operations, on my right eye. I am so grateful I can see
out of that eye that I dont know what to do. Just to be here - a
wonderful, wonderful gift. Health. Hospital - hospitality. When is the
last time youve felt hospitality in a hospital? Weve turned
our prized, precious, highly revered physicians into competitors for a
real bottom line. Theyve become for us a commodity. God forbid.
No, it used to be the doctor was like the person my mother was talking
about with her friends. Oh, wed kind of like to have the doctor
beholden to us and us to the doctor. Oh, that was a treasured relationship,
wasnt it? Called him all kinds of affectionate names? Every time
you saw him, your heart was warmed because you knew he was yours and you
were his - what a bonding that was. He was your doctor. Now he is in some
sort of commercial plan and they change about every six months. He doesnt
like it and you dont like it. Health has become not hospitality,
but a commodity. Competitively bought and sold just for those who can
afford it. The same
is true with education. Think about it for a minute. Remember when you
were a kid. Remember you couldnt afford to go to college, some of
us couldnt. Some of us remember so well applying for what was called
a scholarship, and we got it. We were able to go to college and finish
four years of that treasure of treasures - learning, knowledge, becoming
more than you thought you could ever be because of the professors you
had. The New
York Times carried a story the other day that said those scholarship
funds that you and I got when we were kids are now being diverted. The
marketplace is so tight for rankings for schools. There is such competition
- school with school - that the scholarship funds are now buying the commodity
called the brightest and the best students with the highest SAT scores,
not the kids like you and I might have been who needed the money. No,
the money is not for need. It is to compete against that other school
which might have higher scores. Taking our professors, those persons who
made a difference in our lives - some of us had our whole lives changed
by one teacher - now theyre commodities, and the students are bought
and sold because of the competitive spirit of the bottom line. The story
in the scripture that helps me with this is the most famous, The
Story of the Prodigal Son. You remember it well. The prodigal gets
the inheritance from the father and, if we use contemporary language,
he heads west into the sunset with his fantasies and his dreams of what
life could be like free, apart from the confines of mother and daddy and
the homeplace. Probably today we would [say] he got into a heroin addiction.
Whatever happened to him, it would be like that for a kid today. He hit
the bottom. Theres an interesting phrase in the scripture that Jesus
used to describe the bottom. After the kid wasted himself, all of his
money, he was at the bottom of the bottom, Jesus said, And no one
gave him anything. What is hell?
No gifts. What is Heaven? Showering of gifts. What would it be like for
you if you never received a gift? Hell. And no one gave the kid anything.
That is the bottom. Yet, our culture today is saying be careful about
gifts, they will obligate you, theyll want something back. Theyll
expect something from you. Youll be beholden. So weve almost
lost that ability to see a gift as something that draws me into your world
and you into mine. What is the essence of the gospel? God gives God self
to you. Everyday, showers you, showers you with blessings. We just miss
them most of the time. They just fly by and we dont catch them.
Theyre everywhere. Being here is a gift. No, were so competitive,
were so frightened what a gift might do to us in relationship to
another person that weve just about lost it. You remember
when you were a kid? You used the expression, this was a terrible thing
to say to somebody, Youre nothing but an Indian giver.
You remember you said it to your brother when he took something back,
or your sister when she wanted her bicycle that she had loaned you. Youre
an Indian giver. Remember where that comes from? You see, the Native
Americans who were here before we were never thought of things being owned,
being possessed. Everything was owned by everybody. So, when that Indian
gave to the Puritan that peace pipe, the Puritan took it as if it were
a gift that he then owned, and six months later, the Indian came back
and wanted his peace pipe. It didnt mean he wanted it to own, it
was just to be passed around. It is what a gift is supposed to do. Its
supposed to go from here to there, to here to there. What is the purpose
of a gift - to give to somebody else. (Some of us have done it sometimes
with wedding gifts we didnt like, but we dont tell anybody.)
The gift-giving process is the essence of living - giving. Now not in
a commodity market. Not where everything has a price. I was shocked
to read in The New York Times a few days ago a big story about
New Orleans tombstones. Evidently, people are going into the cemeteries
in New Orleans and stealing these old, beautiful tombstones and selling
them to antique dealers. I would never have dreamed that you could put
a price on an old tombstone. Everything that we know is slowly or quickly
developing a price structure. Because competition is so intense for whatever
it is, and whatever field you want to look in, weve even turned
our doctors and our professors, two of our most revered vocational professionals,
into commodities. Weve done it to children, too. Weve done
it to little kids. When I was
a boy growing up, every Saturday morning meant the same thing. Every Saturday
morning, except in the winter time, every Saturday morning meant you went
to the closet, got out your baseball glove and went down the street. At
the end of our street was a little field, a little vacant lot is what
it was. Everybody gathered down there. This was in the Depression. Very
few kids had gloves. Those of us who did have gloves brought them, because
you shared. There were not many bats and maybe one ball, you brought it
if you had it. We all got to the lot, and the two oldest boys, biggest
boys, best baseball players, said, Ill be the captain of one
team, and the other said, Ill be the captain of the
other team. You automatically knew that you couldnt have them
both on the same team, then it wouldnt be any fun to play because
they would win all the time. This is all worked out [by] little kids,
not an adult in sight. We decided where the first base was - I remember
it changed every Saturday. No. lets put first base here, no, no,
first base here, first base, second base, third base, home plate. We decided
what a foul ball was. Foul ball. Nobody in the adult world was a referee
or an umpire. Everything was done by us. Every Saturday the teams changed.
You might be on Billys team this time, you might be on Sammys
team - it didnt matter. The only people that were there cheering
were the kids who were too little to play. They were waiting a year or
two, but they would sit there and scream and holler. No adults screaming,
Slide Jimmy, slide. We would play until we got tired. Usually
we couldnt remember the score. See it wasnt a competitive
thing, it was play. There wasnt any bottom line to win, it was to
play. There wasnt any commodity called whose the champion.
No, no, that had nothing to do with it. It was to play. The purpose was
to have fun. Though I wouldnt have said it as a kid, we learned
to love each other. We learned to get the kid who wasnt very good
in a position that was suitable for him. Even once in a while a her got
in it, even in those days. But you see
what weve done? Weve taken the little kids, just little bitty
kids, and weve even said, If you want to play, you have to
bring your birth certificate. We dont allow anybody to play on our
team who hasnt presented a birth certificate because we dont
allow anybody in here who is older than they should be. No, the
sense of giving and receiving, the sense of being a part of something
that is free and open and obligated is just about gone. You see, were
really back to the story, were really all the older brother. Every
one of us in this room is the older brother. Every one of us in this room
is living in a society that says, If youre going to have dancing
and singing, youve got to earn it. You cant just be given
a dance, a party, like the younger son. Youve got to earn it. Youve
got to be worthy of it. Youve got to make sure youre appropriate
for what is given to you. A commodity
culture is killing us. You dont know it yet. We havent quite
gotten focused yet as to how to handle it. Those of us who believe in
Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior know full well that how were living
is not the way the Lord wants us to live. Something is wrong. Something
is too selfish about me, maybe even about you. Somehow I really have turned
into the big brother unable to rejoice in the free gift of a party when
it hasnt been earned. Lent is a good time to start saying, Im going to be a gift-giver, and maybe, Lord, with your help, I might even be able to say, Much obliged. Lord, let me be beholden. Amen. Copyright 1999 The Rev. Dr. Daniel P. Matthews |
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